How have you come to this point today? Have you had an amazing week or have you had a week where you feel like in many situations you have failed God and failed to show Gods love to others. I have just finished reading a book called “A Woman’s Battle for Grace”. I never really understood what the term grace meant and often felt like I wasn’t a very good Christian. Even this morning I felt like I had failed when I shouted at the kids as I got them ready…my eldest son couldn’t seem to find any of the clothes he needed for PE and could only find one of his trainers. My middle son and youngest son still had their pyjamas on 10 minutes before we needed to be in the car and I ended up shouting at them, even though I had spent time with God that morning. I asked forgiveness and remembered a passage I had read in the book that said if we try to act like Jesus and try to live by the law of saying what would Jesus do, we will always fail. “Becoming like Jesus doesn’t happen by conscious effort, but rather by constant consideration of the grace of our Champion, Jesus Christ” (Broderson, 2018:129). God knows we will mess up, he chose the 12 disciples, knowing that they would fail countless times and he chooses us knowing we will need his grace to succeed. God loves me and you knowing that we mess up but our hearts are for Him. Just like in the story of the five loaves and two fish, “the grace of Jesus reaches the need and leaves leftovers of grace-more than enough grace for everyone to partake, be satisfied and take some home” (Broderson, 2018). One way to receive more grace is to remind ourselves in prayer and worship of his love for us and his promises. “the lord will take delight in prospering you” (Deuteronomy 30:9), “The Lord, a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love” (Exodus 34:6). God want to bless us, he wants us to have a grace story. He wants us to be able to change because of his grace so that others want to know him too. His love is like Niagara Falls, we cant comprehend how it can continue to flow year on year but is does. It reminds me of the Japanese art of Kintsugi, where broken pots are repaired with gold. It becomes more beautiful because it has been broken and we are like that with God. We are broken, we will make mistakes time and time again but God repairs us, makes us more beautiful and able to be filled with his Spirit.
In essence the Lord is our ultimate champion, the One our hearts desperately long for. He is everything we need. We should be asking God to open our hearts, our ears and our eyes to Him. We must allow God to repair our broken parts with beauty and love